A mentally-active, communicative morning, here in Oakland. After a few weeks of admittedly focused self-absorption, I’m catching up on news from outside my bubble and piecing together my judgments of the world we share.
Revolution in Libya, the US empire in recession and Earth quaking because it wants to. Those are the bits I caught up with, today. Challenges from all over the world. Aliveness, indirectly transmitted to me by news sources from outside America. On Huffington Post, headlines about Libya catch my attention. I scroll down for more news of this magnitude, and I read words about Americans politicking. On the right hand side of the page, and in the header at the top of the front page, entertainment news. Pretty girls. Trivia. Pretty girls. I’m distracted. I want to click.
Not today, though. I keep myself on task. I want the news, what’s really happening. Not the Daily Show, today. I don’t want to laugh. I want the straight dope, no chaser. Neat – a tall pour, please.
I head to the Al Jazeera website, where I find opinions and perspectives about the events of the world without the distractions of American media. I find bold opinions about the decline of the American empire. I read news about Libyan defectors landing on Malta, and I wonder if my friends in Europe will be safe, if “the shit goes down.” And I catch myself, judge myself for being so American. I judge myself for living inside this bubble. And I feel like shit. I feel small and ignorant. I feel like I’ve been propagating an illusion, a delusion of grandeur, by living as an American. I feel short-changed. By my textbooks, my teachers and my story about why I haven’t traveled much outside the US.
So I retreat, back to my bubble, looking for validation, hoping for support: I switch over to Facebook, for news about real things, matters of substance, through the lens of people that Like, Share and Add me – and that I Like, Share and Add. My network. My informants. My fans.
On my Facebook feed, through my handpicked community of healers, conscious beings, visionaries and beautiful people from the many chapters of my journey, I consume the minutia and the musings of individuals. Each one, maybe as self-absorbed as I am. Each one, sharing for reasons only they can admit to with certainty. Hustling, bustling. Marketing their work, advertising their wares, celebrating their achievements, lamenting their shortcomings, propagating their viewpoints. Judgments abound, projections in multiple dimensions. People minding each other’s business. And I’m minding all of it. I contribute. I comment. I share. The musings of the comfortable and the laments of the fortunate. I judge it all. Because I can. Because they want me to. They put it on the Internet.
But my most trusted sources on Facebook are posting about visionaries, the innovators of this generation. Links to TED Talks, YouTube videos by contemporary philosophers. Quotes and links to the newest of the New Age thinkers. Positivity, empowerment, integration. Love, compassion, community, communication. Ah, my life. My purpose. I feel nourished, and I feel optimistic. I can’t change the other people’s business I shouldn’t be minding, but I can change myself – and I can share with the people that I journey with.
So, I reach out to you. My Public. My Dear, Beloved Reader. My family of friends and fans. To share. To chat. To be seen doing my inner work and my work in this world, in the best way I can. To connect with you about life and about living – through my lenses and infused with my light, my shadow, my judgments. Because I believe that I’m helping, by writing these notes in CyberSpace.
And I wonder if I’m thinking small, and if thinking small is the new living big.

